Bandersnatch/Black Mirror ramblings

So yeah, I watched Bandersnatch like- a night before the thing left netflix. I felt a little crazier afterwards, but hey i'm pretty sure that happens to everyone. haha. I managed to get the secret ending that happens if you view everything else in one playthrough, so i feel mildly accomplished :) i watched nosedive with the fam a little after that, and i think that's how black mirror became one of my special interests. i played thronglets for a little bit with my little brother after watching plaything, but it unsettled me a lot so i kind of abandoned them :(

the "go with mother" scene made me very sad
the netflix endings made me laugh a lot
if i had a nickel for everytime a psychological horror thing with the illusion of choice became an interest of mine, i would have 2 nickles. Not much but it's still odd.

So yeah. Here's some of the things i wrote in my journal. Idk if they make sense at all, but might update if i find anything else out. General content warning for mentions of drugs, death, murder, and suicide.

entry 1 - 5/13/25

I tried to make sense of this, but it was mainly just shorthand notes. a lot of questions. I dunno if possession was the right word to use but okay past me, pop off, slay

- what does this mean??? why???

LINE OF POSSESSION - Jerome F. Davies -> Stefan Butler -> Pearl Ritman - - - they all have ⵄ in common

- It's called the "white bear glyph?" (see dash 1 for my further thoughts) Jerome and Setfan scratched/painted iton the walls of their confinement after they went kookoo and killed people

- it's an option to show Stefan in the "Who's There" choice, and it flashes on the monitor of Pearl's computer when we get control of him.

What does it mean. What does it symbolize? When Stefan saw it, he knew he "wasn't in control" and he either kills his dad or doesn't - OH SHIT IT'S CHOICE/THE ILLUSION OF

but the only we can inform him of who we are is through the netflix option- which is batshit funny

MAIN QUESTION: ⵄ - WHO ARE YOU?

entry 2 - 5/13/25

This one was mainly about Colin. My opinion of him changed a lot over time- i went from "not liking his face" (my bad, will poulter) to enjoying his character :) this one was more-so blocks of rambling, so i'll put it word for word.

Also Colin Ritman. What the fuck??? Who IS this guy? He's so damn confusing. (blue pen now ehehehee) He's self aware. Amd he does LSD.
Who does that share traits with?
Jerome F. Davies. He took drugs as well.
But why wasn't Colin like the rest of the White Bear Glyph Victims?
Does it have something to do with that "Person & Control System" thing he ALWAYS talks about? Pacman. Pac(s)man. "Person and Control" man.
He also doesn't mind death oddly enough? When we pick "COLIN" as the guy who jumps, he literally says "fair enough" and takes the plunge.
Same when we pick to make Stefan murder him! He literally gives Stefan a blunt object, bends over, & says to "make it quick."
THE FUCK?! WHAT IS WITH THIS GUY?!
Considering the Person and Control route is an albeit, dream-like ending, Colin is clearly an abnormality. I'll chalk him up to that. (green pen now eheheheehe) And the little quips he makes. "Wrong path, mate." After Stefan picks accept/refuse. "All of them." After Stefan asks what endings he got in [the book] Bandersnatch. That last one really baffles me, man. I think it might correlate to why he doesn't mind death that much. Colin Ritman. I went from hating the dude to thinkin he's cool. What a fuckin enigma.